Vulnerability as a strength

During the time and culture in which I was raised ‘vulnerability’ was synonymous with weakness and being ‘less manly or masculine’. The pervading idea was that emotions were predominantly for women and that men should be impervious to their whims. There were a few moments when emotions were acceptable for men and those tended to be the most extreme in the human experience; loss of a loved one, financial disaster, or a hopeless health diagnosis, anything less was meant to be managed without hassle. 

One major flaw in that cultural mindset is the negative judgement placed on emotions.

One major flaw in that cultural mindset is the negative judgement placed on emotions. Focus on their ability to cause upset and mood swings diminishes the wide ranging, rich tapestry of experience they allow. Although emotions can be uncomfortable or unpleasant, they can also be enriching, enhancing, and deepening to our experience of life. We would benefit from seeing them as shared human experience that changes much like the weather and like the weather, the more we are aware of them, the better we can prepare for and navigate them. 

The definition of vulnerability speaks to being exposed and open to the possibility of being attacked and harmed. I would add to this definition the act or practice of recognizing what is. This is where I begin to see vulnerability as a strength. I turn to G.I. Joe for their deeply profound mantra they offered at every episode, “Now you know, and knowing is half the battle.” Because the cultural mindset I mentioned previously didn’t create a scenario where the emotional experience didn’t exist or was changed, it describes one in which it was suppressed or ignored. 

I see two possible courses of action regarding our emotional experience: 1) we see it as weakness and do all we can to hide it, suppress it, and ignore it. Or, 2) we recognize it and acknowledge it and in so doing allow ourselves to be vulnerable. 

With the first option I see a dead end because if we are ignoring our emotions to create an illusion of strength and security, we will have to constantly work to maintain that illusion. The ups and downs of our life experience will continue to march along and we will have to contort ourselves in each situation to be sure the world can only see the parts we want to be seen. Not only does this prevent us from being fully authentic, it takes a toll on our physical and mental health. It is an exhausting exercise with little to no rest in sight. 

The second option requires an upfront payment in the form of courage. It is an act of bravery to allow ourselves to be vulnerable. The simple fact is that we are acknowledging what is happening for us in any given moment – that’s it! We recognize, first with ourselves and then with those closest to us, that we might be feeling lonely, sad, disconnected, unfulfilled, etc. We can do the same thing with positive emotions.

From this point there are a myriad of options we can take to manage these experiences and even grow from them. Sharing with trusted friends, seeking appropriate medical assistance, employing stress management tools, or even making big life choices are ways we can move through the experience. We can use the wisdom these emotions offer to move us closer to our purpose and the situations that bring us joy. 

Men should take a moment to recognize that this practice isn’t purely for themselves. Recognizing and acknowledging our emotions will allow us vital insights into the state of our lives and areas where we may not be fully satisfied. If we can then make choices that lead us to greater fulfillment and satisfaction, this will ripple throughout or lives and all the people with whom we share it. Think about the kind of husband, father, brother, son, uncle, boss, colleague, etc., you could be if you operated from a place of excitement and earnest interest. 

David Deida, a prominent author and pioneer in the men’s work space, says that the ‘masculine’ (the energetic quality of masculinity that exists in polarity to femininity and that is present in all beings regardless of sex or gender) wants to pursue purpose first and foremost. When a man is able to do this he is doing the greatest service to himself, his family and community, and ultimately to the world. 

Yes, vulnerability and our capacity to allow it can be of service to the entire world! Recognizing what is happening at any given moment is the first step in addressing it. Allowing ourselves to be seen by trusted confidants can help us get perspective and support. From a place of grounded support and thoughtful perspective, we can start to make conscious choices. Conscious choice changes our lives and our worlds. 

The option to ignore and suppress boils down to ego. Vanity. Fear. Many still choose that option because it is widely accepted and the alternative is loudly rejected and ridiculed. However, seen in contrast the bravery required for vulnerability we may begin to see these options switching, where suppression is an expression of weakness and vulnerability as a strength. 

What do we mean by “embodiment”? 

One defining aspect of our human experience is that we all live and operate within a unique physical body. Each of us must deal with both the abilities and constraints of the body that we inhabit. Every ‘body’ comes with a unique set of characteristics that, when brought together, create our individuality — with all of the benefits and challenges that come with it. 

Somewhat surprisingly, many of us have not learned how to connect with our bodies or fully understand them. This inability to feel and sense our own bodies cuts us off from an essential source of wisdom about our experience on this planet. Why are so many of us out of touch with our bodies, and how can we bridge the gap between our minds and our bodies? 

The impact our physical body has on our personal experience is vast. The abilities and constraints of our bodies vary widely; our bodies may or may not allow us to move, express, create, procreate, and connect with others and the world around us. Medical care, daily habits, and lifelong pursuits are heavily influenced by our physical bodies. Attributes such as color, size, and sex can create wildly different experiences for those existing within them. These attributes can impact how we dress, activities we pursue and/or avoid, and importantly how the world views us.

For generations, many of us were raised in cultures that viewed the physical body as a source of sinful pleasures and dirtiness. From my own experience, growing up in my family, topics such as bodily functions, sex, sexuality, and nudity were taboo, even though they are an essential aspect of our human experience. Although natural, they are thought to be dirty and undignified to discuss. However, these are shared human experiences; if we could recognize and discuss them, we might be healthier and happier. Menstrual cycles, bowel movements, physical and mental pain, and emotional distress are a few examples of common, shared human experiences. Denying these experiences is detrimental to each individual and to all hoping to be seen in their fullness. 

For men, we go even farther, denying that pain has any impact on us as a way of demonstrating our strength and control. I remember as a child being told by the men in my family that something didn’t hurt after an accident, even though my whole body was screaming a different message. Moments like that are the beginning of denying and ignoring what our bodies have to tell us. After years of this practice, we are often left with little to no sense of our bodies or its sensations besides the most obviously pleasurable and painful. 

Consequently, we are less equipped to manage subtle emotions before they grow into explosions, leading to anger and violence. We are left struggling to speak the dying language of love making. We get frustrated when we fall into ruts or fail to satisfy our partners. We may even quench the thirst of our own dissatisfaction by seeking outside partners or activities that often leave us feeling empty and out of integrity. And, we may come to ignore the beginning signs of disease that could make a life-or-death difference to us and those we love. 

The good news is that it is never too late to bring your awareness to your physical body and start to listen to the wisdom it’s trying to speak to you. One of the benefits of our physical body is that we can see it, touch it, feel it, hear it, and taste it; and therefore, we can have a direct experience of it immediately. With enough practice we will start to develop a deep and subtle experience of our body that will heighten our intuition and guide us towards people, situations, and choices that will best serve us and our intentions. 

The practice of embodiment does exactly this! Using movement, breath, sound, visualization, and attention we can start to experience our bodies and the myriad of sensations and emotions that can coexist. Frequently, these practices are intense and highly focused so that we pay attention to the patterns that arise when we are at our edge.  For example, during a Chi Generator posture practice, our bodies will often start speaking to us through tired or aching legs and shoulders. Because these sensations are strong, they become challenging to ignore. More importantly, they also create a stream of thoughts that is often a clue to how we typically operate in the world. In that moment of consciously chosen challenge, we can begin to identify our manner of engagement and explore if that is serving us. 

It is said that if something comes up for us during practice, it definitely comes up in other areas of our lives. So, if we recognize patterns of judgment, anger, or negative self-talk during practice we can be sure that others in our lives have been on the receiving end of those things. From there we can start paying closer attention to how we feel when we fall into these engagement strategies and choose to interrupt them before we lose control of our choices. 

I am a person who has anxiety. Through embodiment practice, I have identified a sensation in my abdomen that begins to build as my anxiety increases. Because of embodiment practice, I’ve learned to immediately take steps to interrupt my typical anxiety reactions by breathing, connecting to the earth, and by communicating my needs to friends or family. This practice has prevented unnecessary conflict and created opportunities for deep, trust building communication. 

So yes, greater awareness of our physical bodies can have a direct impact on our relationships, our health, and our life pursuits. The more we practice paying attention to them the more we can use them to guide us and move us closer to our life’s purpose.